Making Decisions

I’ve always been a decision maker. I’m not a shy or timid person. I come to a crossroads and make a choice. It does not matter if minuscule or epic, I am a shot caller. I do not ask for approval before my decisions are made. I make them mostly in split seconds with confidence and no regrets.

I’m at a point in my life where it’s time to make a decision, a major life decision. My children are nearly graduation. It’s time for me to get my shit together. It’s time to think about my life beyond the immediate needs of my children. I am still young. I had children very early in life. I also started a full-time steady job with benefits early to provide for my responsibilities. Said job has turned into my unintentional first career. Therefore, I’ll be eligible for early retirement about the time my stair-step children graduate. Eyes wide open.

What to do now? Stay where I am and continue investing into my current career. It’s long hours, shift-work, weekends, holidays and not so great pay. I work a side job to make ends meet. I do not want to continue this lifestyle. It’s been great. I enjoy what I do but that’s even begging to wear thin over the years. Plus, I have bigger dreams.

What next? College. I’ve made my mind up this is my decision. My mind is made up on the end career goal. It’s a dream I’ve had throughout my adult life. It’s time to put a plan in play to make it happen.

At the moment, I’m prospecting colleges in my area which match my undergraduate degree plan and complement my graduate education goals. Also, I must consider my income requirements while pursuing my baccalaureate. I’ve narrowed it down to two.

Short term goal: begin classes in the fall semester.

Time for myself

I’m gonna take some time for me. My entire adult life I’ve always been in and out of relationships.

I’m tired. I’m over it. I’m calling a timeout. I’m throwing in the towel and investing in myself for a while. I’m not sure for how long but I’m thinking I’m at least worth a year.

I’m not sure how any of this is going to work or if it’s going to work but I’m going to try it out.